j. bell's balls

smug people know everything, but they're not telling.
they purse their lips tellingly, but they don't tell.
they just know. have everything figured out.
all of it. everything makes sense to them.
**
smug people make the sexy big-dicked teenage boy
kind of nauseous.
they create a metallic taste on the tip of his tongue.
when the sexy big-dicked teenage boy is jerking off,
he tries not to think about them, but sometimes
he does anyway. when the sexy big-dicked teenage boy
thinks about them while jerking off, his
orgasms are never as good as they are
when he thinks about other things.
**
his favorite thing to think about
while jerking off is jamie bell.
jamie bell is the actor who starred
in billy elliot and the chumscrubber
and mr foe and the eagle and
other good movies, too.
jamie bell is 26. jamie bell
is hot sexy smoldering gentle
sweet with kind eyes and great lips
and perfect nipples.
the sexy big-dicked teenage boy
thinks about jamie bell a lot,
and, when the sexy big-dicked teenage boy
is jerking off, he imagines that
jamie bell is doing the same thing,
and that they are watching each other do it,
saying sweet gentle encouraging
intimate things to each other while
they are watching each other jerk off.
**
they are standing so close to each
other they can smell each other's breath.
they have both been eating peppermint candy,
and drinking vodka.
**
the torrent of hot sweet
high-voltage orgasm is going to shake
both
the sexy big-dicked teenage boy
and jamie bell
to the very fiber of their sweet gentle
sexual selves.
**
whenever the sexy big-dicked teenage boy
jerks off while thinking about jamie bell,
he knows what's going to happen next.
**
GOD! GOD! GOD! oh good gushy GOD!
**
he knew it would be good, and it was.
**
he's never smug about it, though.
**
god how he hates smug people.
**
they just make him sick.

--Carl Miller Daniels (This poem appeared in Chiron Review, Issue #119, Fall 2020.)