warm custard

when the sexy big-dicked teenage boy is
feeling down, what he may be experiencing
is the realization
that orgasm is not enough.
**
there he is: big-dicked young
and beautiful. and,
once his cum is spurted, there
he is again -- miserable, depressed,
lost.
**
two or three
20-second-long orgasms per day
is not enough to keep him happy with
the overall direction of his life.
**
there are the dreams where
he wakes up in the middle of
the night, his underpants drenched
with his own warm smelly cum.
that these dreams are often pleasant
is undeniable.
**
mainly, though, he seems to be
wondering how
long he can go on feeling this
miserable.
**
perhaps he'll find
the right people to talk to; or, having
no luck at that, perhaps
there's hope that he'll get through
these dark feelings that he's
experiencing, and that he'll make
it out okay.
**
self-motivational peptalks,
that sort of thing. yes he may find
that he needs to give himself a good
talking-to every now and then...
**
because he knows it's true:
in his heart of hearts
he knows that
sometimes great orgasms just aren't
enough to keep him going.
there are matters of
the soul, of the heart,
of the peaceful-minded
brain. urges to love, and
be loved.
**
some of this getting
through the business of life
is just floundering
around, steps and missteps.
and lots of them.
**
generally, though, he's
managing to keep on going -- looks like
he's gonna make it through.
**
of course
there are still the dreams where
he wakes up sexy and sexualized in the middle of
the night, his underpants freshly drenched
with his own hot smelly cum.
**
and in fact these are not
bad dreams -- messy though,
aren't they.

--Carl Miller Daniels (2015)